Invisible

I'm in a room full of people
But no one sees me
I'm standing right next to you
But you look straight through me
I call your phone, you answer
But you can't hear my voice
It's like the walls I built around me
Now blend with what surrounds me
I'm like that one grain of rice
That falls on the floor
And goes uncooked
And before they even notice me, i'v already been pushed and stepped upon
Ready to be swept away

How can I continue to stand
And hang on
When those who claim to help push me further down
When my efforts to be noticed are just passed by like the beggars on the streets
But somethings are not worth fighting for or against

Invisibility is the game
And I always win first place

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Alone

Alone

The street light beams on top of me
As if its a play and the spot light is on me
Except this time eyes are not on me

Loneliness is the theme
And I am the protagonist
All the other characters have left
And the stage is to be my own

Loneliness

Even a stray dog looks at me and runs in fear that he may catch my disease
My hands freeze in the cold longing for that warmth of care

Kindness

I see people pass by and they are afraid to look
Thinking that I may reach out to them for help

Love

There are those who look and wish to help but care too much of what others may think
And they continue to walk but look at me from the corner of their eyes

The lights go dim
The play is coming to an end
Slowly I lift my head up
Eyes full of emptiness
Heart punched with holes
Never to be filled
I stand alone

Darkness

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The Girl

Through the insults and disgrace I looked beyond and found friendship
Bt the stabs in the back felt deeper than the Ocean
The girl I used to know has disappeared
The girl has gone astray like the dogs in the street that sniff every corner for a good familiar smell
I look at you in disbelieve and disgust
In pain and anger...
Searching to find the hole that caused the leak
But here I stand facing the hole eye to eye...it's you!
I see you speeding through the checkpoints of life
It's like you got no breaks
You need to slow down Before you run over a cliff and hit rock bottom...
The girl I used to call my friend is now my enemy
It's not a coincidence that I heard a man preach this morning on the radio about things i need to let go
No it wasn't a coincidence, it was a realization
He was talking about you!
The lies!...the insults!...the hatred!
I never thought they were real
I familiarized myself with only love...kindness...care
That the dark side of those just hanged on long enough to find its way to creep up on me
The girl is gone forever
Cut off! Removed! And replaced!
Its over...
The girl I know is the girl I knew

you want more...?

You shod thnk of life as a game
You have to choose btn easy, normal and difficult
You get to a point in your life where all that you normally do is just not enough and you want more
Sometimes you wish you did more with your life but you just don't know where to start
But remember that once you have that dream and ambition there's always hope
People will be around trying to stop you and distract you with all sort of claims and drama but...
FOCUS!
DONT GIVE UP!
It's worse living with the regret of never trying than living with the thought that you tried and did not succeed.
As humans we sometimes tend to rely on others to push us and make the way for us...if you continue to do that, you will live your boring life always yearning for more
But don't get it twisted, somethings don't come as easy as people show it to be...

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