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Every day is a struggle..
Some reach their destination, others fall back
Falling back doesn't mean your a failure
Failure allows you to have a second chance
Chance to show who you are
You are beautiful inside and outside to shine
Shine so bright those walking by you need to wear shades
Shades of black and white is what you would mostly wear
Wear what seems fit to show people your curves and shape
Curves and shape define you
You are not perfect, nothing comes easy
Easy as it may seem but difficult as u begin to try
Try and prove them wrong
Wrong and bad criticism make you stronger
Stronger enough to imprint your name on their hearts
Hearts are fragile and easy to break
Break not thy heart by trying to please
Please forgive and let go of the burden
Burden...everyday is a struggle

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Once bitten twice shy

Look at him
You wonder what's going through his head
He's got the nicest clothes, cleanest shoes
but his eyes are so far into his head

He was born with a silver spoon in his mouth, but fed with the dirtiest his whole life
Its not his fault his dad is a drug dealer
Or his mom a prostitute

His wide and amazing smile hides his pain...
He surrounds himself with people to avoid thinking...
He lacks what most of us call family...

His cars...money; friends took for granted
They stole and cheated but he had no say
Days and nights passed till the month of May
When both parents died and left him with no pay

Now he sits on his stairs
And stares into space
With no where to go and nothing to do
Thinking about the things he should have thought of before

Life hit him hard on the head before
But he healed the wound and forgot to grasp the message
Once bitten twice shy
Time has passed...
He continues to stare
Looking for answers in the air

With a deep sigh
He shuts his eyes...

Unknown

My mind is running, my stomach is racing, and my heart is doing laps…

Everything all jumbled up like a rubix cube…

The perfection of imperfection

The adequacy of nothingness

The principle of uneasiness

Worry is a disease that takes a little from ou

I’m sitting here with a migraine trying to figure things out…

Stupidity is an act of life but not a way of life

Ignorance is a form of stupidity

Failure to notice is an achievement of ignorance

I don’t speak in parables; I just speak what I feel

I speak more in words than with my mouth and actions

It’s like hanging on at the edge of a cliff and holding on but you give up and let go

I’m no beast, I’m no monster, I’m just here to care and protect

People go around speaking gibberish about living life to the fullest and enjoying every part of it

But do they know the challenges that come with life?

You can’t eat your cake and have it

Such is life

I walk on my feet everyday thinking to myself wishing I had a car

And I look into the faces of others that pass by and I play the guessing game

…. greedy? angry? Happy? Peaceful? Selfish? Forgiving? Hurt? Torn? Broken?

What more can I say? Everyone has a different face

I don’t judge, I just play the game

Someone

I love how you know what to say to mk me smile no matter how bad I feel
I love your smile...esp your cheesy smile when you want to get me to do something for you
I love how you always want to share no matter how little you have
I love your willingness to help
I love when you stare into my eyes and speak through them
I love when you touch my face...in that moment everything is perfect
I love your hugs...
Your kisses...
Your touch...
How you speak to me...
The things you say...


We still have soo much to learn from each other
I can't imagine a day without hearing from you, how much more 2 days or 3
Every morning, I wake up with u in mind eager to say goodmorning
I dream of our future, where our lil kids run around screaming 'mummy' 'daddy'

Sometimes when I think of how we met and what we have become, there's no doubt that we are meant to be
I sometimes make mistakes and you help me learn from them
it's never easy but you always help us find ways to make it work
I couldn't ask for anything more than what I have in you

People look at us and say, 'look at them...that's true love'
Other say, 'you guys are always with each other that you look alike'

We ARE always with each other, both physically and emotionally
You are always in my heart and mind like God guiding me along the way

It's reality...

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Invisible

I'm in a room full of people
But no one sees me
I'm standing right next to you
But you look straight through me
I call your phone, you answer
But you can't hear my voice
It's like the walls I built around me
Now blend with what surrounds me
I'm like that one grain of rice
That falls on the floor
And goes uncooked
And before they even notice me, i'v already been pushed and stepped upon
Ready to be swept away

How can I continue to stand
And hang on
When those who claim to help push me further down
When my efforts to be noticed are just passed by like the beggars on the streets
But somethings are not worth fighting for or against

Invisibility is the game
And I always win first place

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Alone

Alone

The street light beams on top of me
As if its a play and the spot light is on me
Except this time eyes are not on me

Loneliness is the theme
And I am the protagonist
All the other characters have left
And the stage is to be my own

Loneliness

Even a stray dog looks at me and runs in fear that he may catch my disease
My hands freeze in the cold longing for that warmth of care

Kindness

I see people pass by and they are afraid to look
Thinking that I may reach out to them for help

Love

There are those who look and wish to help but care too much of what others may think
And they continue to walk but look at me from the corner of their eyes

The lights go dim
The play is coming to an end
Slowly I lift my head up
Eyes full of emptiness
Heart punched with holes
Never to be filled
I stand alone

Darkness

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The Girl

Through the insults and disgrace I looked beyond and found friendship
Bt the stabs in the back felt deeper than the Ocean
The girl I used to know has disappeared
The girl has gone astray like the dogs in the street that sniff every corner for a good familiar smell
I look at you in disbelieve and disgust
In pain and anger...
Searching to find the hole that caused the leak
But here I stand facing the hole eye to eye...it's you!
I see you speeding through the checkpoints of life
It's like you got no breaks
You need to slow down Before you run over a cliff and hit rock bottom...
The girl I used to call my friend is now my enemy
It's not a coincidence that I heard a man preach this morning on the radio about things i need to let go
No it wasn't a coincidence, it was a realization
He was talking about you!
The lies!...the insults!...the hatred!
I never thought they were real
I familiarized myself with only love...kindness...care
That the dark side of those just hanged on long enough to find its way to creep up on me
The girl is gone forever
Cut off! Removed! And replaced!
Its over...
The girl I know is the girl I knew